I'm not the biggest fan of reading. Part of me wants to be, but it's more of a chore than a hobby I enjoy. When I do decide to read, the only things I like to read are books that will push me to know and love Jesus more.  So when Beth Moore puts a ton of her books out there for FREE, you better believe I will be all over them. Just saving them up for a day when I decide I want to be a reader.
Right now I am in the middle of "Believing God" and it is so good! She could tell me to rob a bank and I would probably do it without hesitation.

In this season of life, I think it's safe to say I am struggling with singleness. I cannot imagine how hard marriage is or juggling kids while making sure dinner is cooked and clothes are clean, all while joyfully submitting to your husband. Yet, I desire to have a husband and a family but The Lord graciously has me in this season of singleness. I know without a doubt that the ultimate goal is Christ and not marriage or children. I know that they, like anything else, can easily become an idol. Even in this time of frustration, I have no choice but to trust that the loving Father knows what he is doing.

Beth Moore mentioned in her book that she does not hesitate to ask The Lord for his miracles and blessings because his resources are endless. One thing that really grabbed my attention was her simple but bold statement of trust and faith in The Lord. " If I don't get my miracle but God gets greater glory, I choose to believe I received the greater miracle with the most eternal dividends." I want to have faith that The Lord is giving me what is best for me because he is a loving Father who is good and does good. As frustrating as it is, I have to keep my eyes on Him. If not, I am like Peter sinking like a rock. Instead of sinking in water, I sink in a sea of doubt and self pity, both of which reek of sin. Like a child throwing a temper tantrum and screaming because they didn't get what they wanted.

I want to believe that if I don't get what I want, that I am getting the greater miracle. I am getting a gift that is just as great. Even in frustration and doubt, I have a Father that is by my side who has not abandoned me. The Lord is gracious and in this season of singleness, I know that I am just as blessed as the person who has everything they ever asked for.